Saturday, July 31, 2010

a friend in need is a pest.

hey potential readers,

the second feature of today is about helping others. we go through life getting help as i said before but how much do we give out? why do we help others? what do we get from it? how about another challenge readers? i challenge you to a dual, a dual of ARK's. (Acts of Random Kindness) this week try and do as many as you can but at least one a day. do something; anything for someone else; anyone, without thought of gain in it for yourself. as small as opening a door or as big as giving money away to some stranger or your friend or family.

your mission if you choose to accept it... 7+ ARK's. if you want post the experience as a comment. i'd love to hear them.

today's moral: the world is filled with good people, don't you want to be one of them? if so think of others and they will think of you.

JustAnotherFUp

day late and a dollar short

hi potential readers,

this will be a double feature of sorts... long day yesterday turned into a long morning.

as for yesterday, we all have heavy loads to carry from time to time and we carry heavy loads for various reasons but how do we know when to ask for help? sometimes it takes a slap in the face to know what we thought we already knew. as creatures of habit we tend to our nature to avoid change and one thing i discovered last night i need to change is to allow myself to drop my guard more and share my load with people.

yesterday's moral: no one makes it trough life with out help from someone somewhere. get over it and accept it.

JustAnotherFUp

Thursday, July 29, 2010

keep going

hello potential readers,

not a bad day today at all. there was something really great today that happened.

i love sword fighting and today i got to do a good amount of it. but i started to think about and fighting is a lot like life. sometimes you get hit, cut, bruised, and bloody. others you are the one on top. you can fight with honor or fight dirty. some fight better then others but we all fight and eventually we all loose. no matter what it's a ever shortening fight.

today's moral: keep fighting, in the end it must be worth it. certainly no one has come back to complain.

JustAnotherFUp

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

1,2,3,4,5...

hi potential readers,

6,7,8,9,10.

ok i feel a little better. rough day today with both highs and lows. trying to keep this streak of happy going even if it kills me in the process. why is it so hard for people to grow up sometimes? half of my day was spent with children, the other half with adults who act like children. why can people take responsibility for their actions? is that so much to ask for? from gossip to just making choices that effect others without thought of the others opinion, i just don't like it. these people are not bad people but they sometimes lack the foresight to see past their own words.

now you maybe thinking this is a little hypocritical of me. and i guess it is. but we are all guilty of wanting to be the good guy and rarely if ever cast ourselves the villain. my problem isn't with the action, it is with the constancy of the action and the lack of ownership of a wrong choice. but more then that the indignant attitude presented by those who make choices for others without thought of them.

regardless the noble intention, it bares consequences. the road to hell is line with good intent.

today's moral: simple; if you screw up, fess up.

have a good night,

JustAnotherFUp

yesterday's late forcast

sorry potential readers,

had a busy day yesterday. to go on my moral from two days ago... clouds moved in quick yesterday however exited just as quickly and for the first time in i don't know how long i didn't dwell on the pain and anger. i ended up spend the evening with great people who i love, adore, and respect and seem to have similar feelings for me. and you know what potential readers? as bad as parts of the day got it was nothing compared to it's opposite that was reached within 5 minutes of good company with the people who are there for me when i'm not even there for me.

talk to you later but first...

yesterday's moral: some days work and some days don't and you never know which one you had till it's completely over.

JustAnotherFUp

Monday, July 26, 2010

can't say today was bad... at all really.

hi potential readers,

today was a day that just worked for me. and i am totally fine with that. i started a new job i love! i got that job i was talking about a few days ago, the one i was prepping for... that is going good. today was a day i just felt on top of the world. but i take pause and look at the days i have written previous to this and it's nice to have in writing a great day like today to remind me when the bad returns. i do not look forward to our reuniting and hold the negative as no friend of mine but a returning guest none the less.

i hope to ride this happiness as long as it lets me, and i hope good comes your way and hold you in it's embrace as long as it can.

today's moral: although there are fewer good moments in the world and therefore in a life, cherish them! they are the stars in an otherwise black night to easily forgotten on a cloudy night.

best wishes fly fast to you,

from
JustAnotherFUp

Sunday, July 25, 2010

some are left unsaid.

hi potential readers,

i have a joke for you today.

a man goes to prison because he was in the mob. he had never been before and on his walk to his cell the other prisoners kept shouting out numbers followed by laughing. as he enters his cell and settles in another number gets shouted. his cell mate laughs. "hey you're new so i should explain." he said, "many of us have worked in crime most of our life and heard a lot of the same jokes so we just gave them numbers and since we all know how the joke goes we get it and why it's funny." after about a month the guy starts to get the hang of it. finally he decides to try it out. and at lunch he finds his chance. "24!" the man says. silence... his cell mate looks at him sternly. the man thinks he'll try again. "58!" he screams a little louder. no laughs... people are starting to stare at him. his cell mate says "what are you doing?"
finally the guy thinks of his favorite joke and stands up on the table screaming at the top of his lungs, "91!" every one is staring daggers at him in total silence. he slowly sits down and his cell mate says what the hell do you think you were doing?"
the guy says "91 is the funniest joke i have ever heard in my life, what did i do wrong?"

his cell mate looks at him and says "hey some people can tell a joke and some people can't."

today's moral: sometimes it's better to sit quiet and listen. better to have people think you are an idiot then to open your mouth and remove any doubt.

JustAnotherFUp

Saturday, July 24, 2010

here i am so lets go!

hey potential readers,

so i made a choice but it is hard to know if it will have been the right one. but i spent the majority of the day with friends. friends i have missed, friends i love, and friends that care about me as much as i care about them.

i don't know if the choice i made was the best but is the one that makes me happy.

today's moral: right or wrong whatever you do must make you happy. so choose what you want to do and try not to hurt others as payment for your happiness.

JustAnotherFUp

Friday, July 23, 2010

take two for today.

hi potential readers,

as it was so elegantly put "the problem is choice."

me, my friends, and i assume all of you out there reading are faced with choices every minute of every day. if you are like me, you pine over decisions hoping to have made the right one and kick yourself when you don't. how does anyone ever really know one choice is better then another? it's a crap shoot.

a wise man once said "you have not lived unless you have learned to live with regret." a man with no regret is a man who has never made the wrong choice and therefore hasn't really lived.

i don't know what to do... and i don't think i'm alone in that fear but i am separated from others with the same fears and it creates the feeling of hopelessness in me.

i have so many regrets and doubts. but i guess that means i have lived.

today's moral: learn to live with regret because it's here to stay. try and make good choices and be as good as you can to one another. we are all connected even when we are separated.

JustAnotherFUp

better late then never.

hey potential readers,

sorry i didn't write earlier but i was busy.

i propose a question in today's entry... how much can a person change in them selves to improve who they are until they lose who they where completely?

i have been trying to become a better person and as a result i am slowly losing myself, however if i needed to change as i felt i did, dose it really matter so much? i am not sure. some say it is noble and good of me to try and improve myself but at what cost? sacrificing myself? or just coming to terms with my new reality?

moral: it is nice to try to change yourself but don't lose who you are in the process.

JustAnotherFUp

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

ok...

hey potential readers,

sorry for a post so late in the day but here we go anyway. interesting day filled with small incident yet only one to report...

if revenge is a dish best served cold then what is jealousy? particularly envy based on fear of losing something. a near and dear friend of mine was hanging out with a mutual friend of the opposite sex and without significant others. both friends used to date but since then ended. none the less the girl's boyfriend expressed his discontent in the situation partially because the guy is single. the girl was having a good time catching up with a good friend but had to leave as a result of the boyfriend's fear of losing her. yet the guy is happy for the girl and has been saying that he thinks they are good together and wishes her not to consider dropping him like he's hot.

fear can motivate us to be many things however when fulled by jealousy of time with another... the motivation is never good.

today's moral: jealousy will do so much worse for connections then accepting things as they come. i am ashamed to say i have been cheated on and had the misfortune of losing a friend over a significant other using me to cheat on them. but the more you try to control something as uncontrollable as a person, more you remove yourself from their life.

JustAnotherFUp

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

another day in the life.

howdy potential readers,

decided instead of being a downer today like the day merited but a history lesson in my favorite kinds of persons in history... the samurai.

now i am sure you have seen pictures of them, now a bit about them, probably have seen the sword they are famous for carrying. but did you know that the samurai hung their sword blade up? i am going to assume you said know and explain why.

according to the samurai it was dishonorable to unsheathe their weapon unless they drew blood; either theirs or their enemies. so if they didn't draw blood when they drew their blade they would draw it across their thumb as they put it away.

today's moral: just because you can do something doesn't mean you should. honor is stronger then muscle, and know matter who you are or where you are from be humble to all around you. you never know who might be holding their sword, trying to stay their hand.

aloha,

JustAnotherFUp

Monday, July 19, 2010

why do we still have mondays?

hi potential readers,

kind of early in the day for my post but i feel the need to say something now.

"life is pain princess, anyone who says different is selling something."

that sums up today so far for me. had a migraine when i woke up... went to work which was loud, last night got a call from an ex which was unpleasant, still having roommate issues, got charged for internet for two months today, and this person i like put on their facebook status that they woke up with someone this morning and how great it was to be with someone.

it gets harder and harder to brush off the things in life that bring you down.

pain comes in many forms and yet you rarely can see it coming until it's too late. i guess today is just a venting day for me but to keep in theme...

today's moral: PAIN IN ALL FORMS SUCKS! and yet there is no escape. enjoy good while it lasts and cherish every second of it, remember it when it's gone because it's those fleeting moments that get you through the rest.

best wishes for you from,

JustAnotherFUp

Sunday, July 18, 2010

my sabath is spent sleeping in

hi potential readers,

kind of a weird analogy today. i am a fan of boston cream pie! that's right i said it. deal with it. :P my father loves carrot cake and coconut what ever... and my mother is a coffee cake girl. my sister is all about the cupcakes in fact she had a cupcake pyramid at her wedding a few months back.

we are four people with different tastes and it looks anymore that blood is the only thing still holding us together. we are family and we practically loath being in the same room together for more then 6 minutes at a time. people i am supposed to love i can't stand. not very fun... but my point is here.

i want to find someone who can come into my life and love boston cream pie together with me. i know they are out there, i just need to bag me one! :)

today's moral: you can only have so many differences with someone until you run out of similarities and should that happen... sometimes the only comfort is cakes and pies.

your own digital fan of boston cream pie,

JustAnotherFUp

Saturday, July 17, 2010

simple day means simple work

hi potential readers,

have you ever felt like a fool? like every day you were the butt of every joke and life was just coming down on you? that's my everyday. hence my name, but i saw inception last night and i made a strange connection in that movie to something new in my life. i recently bought a new shirt after a suggestion from a friend of mine who suggested that i had a nice body but rarely show it off. (rarely is a lose term here, i do have a tendency for striping for jokes and other fun activities. :P) but in the movie these characters have objects that they carry to remind themselves of reality and to ground them to the world.

for the first time i found a shirt that i feel good in. i mean down right sexy. maybe that's strange and egotistical but i'm writing a blog about my day to day life like someone cares... ego and stupid. what a catch!

but it makes me feel good, and as much as i often feel the fool and down it's nice to have this new source of up in my life. so cool...

yeah...

anyways,

today's moral: if you feel the fool and think your life is a joke, least you can do is find one good thing, hang on to it, and have a laugh or two at your own expense. you never know when your next laugh could be.

till next time,
JustAnotherFUp

Friday, July 16, 2010

happy to see friday

welcome back potential readers,

have you ever liked someone? liked them a lot, so much it was hard to think about much else? well i find myself there... again. sorry if this puts a bad image of me out there to you but i am of the mind that the heart has as much room for lust and love as it has for pain and anger, and either lust or love here i am again.

i have kind of a horrible attraction to people with less then perfect past's and the present is no different in that aspect but the new feeling is the limit of intercourse i have thought about in regards to this person. now i have and others have helped me say this to this person in fewer words to the extent of "JustAnotherFUp likes you. FYI." but i have trouble putting my thoughts into words with this person. there is just something about them that can't be faked, lost, found, or explained and when you see it in someone it draws you to them like a klondike bar... and you would do anything for them.

but i have the problem that follows after. little to no interest returned. worst then that is the dreaded "friend only!" ladies... please if you are going to say this to a guy... just cut his stuff off instead. i can imagine it's less painful. anyway back to the original point. i have been so taken by this person that i found it hard to focused today at work. i nearly hurt myself several times and was yelled at a lot today. yet regardless there they are in my head flashing smiles and waves to me, and me wanting to be there with them basking in their wonderfulness.

before i get to today's moral potential readers; i posse a question. what would you do if you were me in this situation? i suppose the one reader i know i have can call me with their thoughts. (HI) but if anyone else is out there reading my daily babble of random insanity; make your thoughts know to me.

now...

the moral of the day:
when working, if it is possible to do so, keep work and play/life separate... it just ends bad. sometimes it's a cut hand and sometimes it's a broken heart but 9 times out of 9 it doesn't go well.

have a great weekend and i'll post tomorrow,
JustAnotherFUp

Thursday, July 15, 2010

singing my song and staying strong!

hello potential readers,

day four and not much to say today. pretty boring thursday. but i have a story... i always have a story.

there is a child sitting at home with their mother eating dinner. dad is out working late again. it is nearly 8 pm when dad gets home after a long day of working as a plumber. he is welcomed home by his wife who heats up his cold dinner. the child is sitting across the table doing homework and is becoming nauseous from the smell of their father. finally the child feels the need to say something... and screams. "god dad! you smell so bad! why?! why do you do this! put yourself through the stick and how in god's green earth can you keep a smile on the whole time!?"

the father calmly puts down his knife and fork and says... "listen. i am a plumber, and i'm good at what i do. i own my own business and i have provided for you and your mother and that makes me happy."

"if i have learned anything in my time on earth it is this... god gives everyone two things, what they are good at and what makes them happy... and if god is smiling on you they will be the same thing. mine are plumbing and being a good husband and father, respectively. i work in filth with the hope that i can support you in whatever god gave to you... and i hope as a good father that both are the same thing, because only god could smile on you more then me."

today's moral: follow what you love and what are good at. even if they take you through shit it will be worth smiling over.

JustAnotherFUp :)

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

so far so good

hey there potential readers,

not a horrible day today. just long and hot. but that doesn't leave me with nothing to say. today two things went on, i made something for a friend of mine... right now to my knowledge my only reader. (thanks) and it is a good friend's birthday. good on both counts. yet problem: i am at least 100 miles from either of them. making me miss the friends i do have. not that it is bad to miss people and it is better to have one friend then none. never the less i miss the people i have grown to love.

if you are reading this anyone take a moment to think of 5 of your better friends/loved ones. don't loose these people. in fact call them before the weekend is out and let them know you care and miss them. trust me it's nice to hear it sometimes.

trying to practice for a "job" audition. going well. but as i often do i am questioning my chosen field, thinking maybe i should have picked something a bit more reliable and dependable for a career. however i look at some of my better friends and they are doing what they love and what i love to do so that gives me hope and strength to keep moving forward.

little short winded today after a long day of work...

moral of today:
if you find yourself doubting yourself, stop and look to your friends. they can be your guiding star in a dark storm if you let them.

be good to each other,

JustAnotherFUp

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

what did you do today?

hi potential readers,

well day one was the warning if you will. time to jump in with both feet and get wet.
first off today; a first for me! now i have been unconscious, i've missed work, and i have even rolled off the bed in my day, but never all at once. i was knocked out for 9 hours. yes it sucked...

but upon waking i discover yet another knife in the back.
before that, you need the whole story. last thusday (6 days) i was told one of my roommates at school is moving out for some reason or another. i heard it second hand from another one of my 4 roommates. i am 100 miles away in my home town trying to make some money for school in a month or so. however the information i was given was not entirely correct. true my roommate is moving out but is still planning on paying rent till a sub-leaser is found. this was not the impression i was given. so i got mad. said things that in one case are justified but in the other are too aggressive.

that being said, the roommate who gave me the false information has now said publicly that i over reacted. now as this is true it was only because of their false information. wtf!

i suppose if there is a moral of this story... it would be, never go into a business contract with friends. they quickly turn into enemies. it is a painful process.

recommendation: avoid this situation if you can.

let me know what you think... your friend,
JustAnotherFUp

till tomorrow

Monday, July 12, 2010

day one...

hi out there potential readers,

this is JustAnotherFUp trying this whole blogging thing out for the first time. For two reasons, first i finally feel like i have something to say and two maybe my thoughts and experiences i have been bottling for years might actually do some good for someone.

i have much to say about life thus far but before i get into details (which names will be changed to protect the innocent) let me throw a few facts about me out there first. i am a poor speller and am in college. i love movies so there will definitely be film references throughout this blog. if you don't get my references... look them up.

that's all for right now, i'll talk to you soon, i hope.